Making Things Happen

Evening readers! I have an exciting update for you all!

If you have ever read my ‘This is Me’ post introducing myself and who I am, you’ll already know that I’m a creative person who has been trying to get her foot in the door of the creative/media industry since I graduated. Its not been easy, and it still isn’t.

Over the last few months I’ve struggled, and I mean really struggled. My confidence and self-belief has taken its biggest knock than ever before. I’ve been led to question everything about myself, about what I want to do and whether or not I’ll ever get to do what I love – be what I love. I’ve been made to feel not good enough, I’ve been led to believe that I have a shot only to have been fooled and let down, I’ve been lied to, ignored and rejected one after the other. I’ve rarly been treated with any kind of respect or compassion and I’ve come to learn the saying really is true, ‘Its a dog eat dog world.’

After a while I simply had to take a break from applying, people don’t realise just how much it takes out of you, mentally and emotionally. One thing I haven’t yet mentioned however during all of this was how only after a couple of months at my current employment, I had got in touch with the marketing executive at my company – I figured it was worth a shot. This then produced a meeting when he visited our Leeds office, of which all I was expecting was a little advise and for him to look at my CV. Little did I know, I was actually going to get the chance at some real experience.

I have now been able to change my job title role to Administration Assistant and Marketing Support. Unpaid? Yes, but that makes no difference to me. My ideal choice of company? Unfortunately not, but again that doesn’t matter. A chance to learn and receive relevant professional experience? Absolutely! It’s only been a few weeks and so far I haven’t done much, because of course I still have to do the job I’m being paid for, but I’m working it out to fit in the tasks that have been handed to me by the marketing exec. I’m doing things that I understand, that make me feel more like myself. I’m learning more about what marketing entails and once again being part of a creative process.

It’s not what I envisioned at all when I finished university, but I also never expected to get my dream job either. I was realistic in understanding that I would have to start from the bottom, I would have to put in hard work, grit and determination to eventually get the title and work I desired. Unfortunately, even that has turned out to be difficult to accomplish, getting your foot in the door is not nearly as easy and simple as it sounds, it’s more like to trying to fit a square key into a very round hole – quite nearly impossible. Even then however, if you are someone like me you will be willing to mould yourself, to make things happen, to take risks and to fight for what you want no matter the cost. For myself, the cost has been a great deal of my independence in having to work in a job my sister had to get me, in having her as my manager and my way of transport everyday. It’s cost me my pride, my beliefs and even my identity in most parts, not to mention my mental health. But I am in no way ungrateful for this chance I have been given now.

I made this happen for myself, it may not be my first choice but that doesn’t matter, that doesn’t matter in the slightest. What does matter is that I’m going with it, I’m going to use it to prove myself, to grow and to do it to the best of my abilities and hope that someone, somewhere see’s that I put all the things that leading up to this cost me aside, to do a damn good job. Because when you have a passion for something, thats what drives you in everything you do, and everything you want to acheive.

I’m looking forward to seeing where this next step will take me, for now though readers I’ll leave you with the overall meaning of this post:

Make things happen for yourself and never give up.